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It’s over it’s done there’s no turning back I just needed you. I told you the day we got together I was anxious I have the worst abandonment and betrayal traumas you can imagine you said you did too and I said I’ll narrate where I am and what I’m doing for you so you don’t have to ask and I did I sent you videos and audios and locations and pics for months and months and months and I kept waiting for you to try to help me to want to do the same but…. Idk why idk why you don’t care when I’m in pain but I can’t do it today you said no Christmas no visits this month and then did a weird ass disappear and shut off your phone and you lied he’s not there you lied why would you lie I asked where you were I was freaking out in the basement I couldn’t get it together you said no Christmas I have to be alone all month for 9 months I can’t be alone that long nobody seems to care my mom left me in an airport my dad threw me away six times nobody stays I’ve been alone o can’t be alone I keep telling g you and you don’t want to see me why won’t you see me I’m igly ugly I’m a bitch I wouldn’t be attracted to me either I’m sorry I wk t do this again I promise I’m for real I’m really for real it’s done I’m gone I’m sorry for everything forgive me forget me