20 [M4A] Looking to be cucked, but not in the way you think…

Im abit of a cuck, but not in the traditional sense. I live hearing how guys would date the girls I’m into. Do I like hearing about the things guys would do to my crushes, like how hard they would fuck them, sure. That being said, I don’t imagine myself in the corner jerking off. That’s why I’m looking for a different type of conversation. Sure pounding a girl until she can’t walk is hot, but I wanna hear the other stuff you’d do with my crushes. The dates you would bring them on, the cuddling while watching a movie with them. Maybe she’ll give you a soft blowjob. That’s the stuff that really gets me off when I hear people talk about it. And that’s what I’m looking for. Would love to share my crushes with a descriptive bud looking for a more wholesome than hardcore chat about this stuff. Hearing about how people would date and treat them is so much hotter than them just fucking