When will it end?

Things have been terrible for so long- I don't feel enjoyment in anything. I don't want to be at work, I don't want to be at home. I have nothing to look forward to, and there is no place, at any point in time, where I want to be. My unwed husband lies to me and makes me feel like shit constantly, I have maybe one friend that is states away, and zero family.

My body is falling to shit due to elevated levels of cortisol for so long. I'm exhausted.

The worst part? I have nothing to look forward to. Suffering is on the forecast for the foreseeable future.

I just want it all to end.