I hate my new boobs

I had a pdmx a few months ago. After a few more months of trouble and phone calls and cancellations, I was finally able to get my reconstruction surgery. I told the doctor I wanted to do fat grafting to minimize rippling and to make my breasts appear symmetrical. My chest prior was very lopsided, with one breast being about a cup and a half larger than the other, and sitting lower. The surgeon assured me that they would be able to make my chest decently symmetrical. When I woke up from surgery, I found out they didn’t do fat grafting as they didn’t deem it necessary. It’s now been about two months and I hate them so much. They look like my boobs did before, lopsided and one hanging way below the other. It’s not just me sitting in a mirror and staring at them, I’ve even shown a few friends to ask if I’m crazy but they immediately are able to point out the lopsidedness. The rippling is still very obvious as well. I thought for a while maybe it was just because of the types of bras I was wearing, but even ones giving a bit of a lift seem to make the rippling more obvious. I’m disgusted with them. They’re just as crooked as before, but now with scars and ripples. They just made me look worse. I don’t want to have another surgery to try to fix this. I had complications with both surgeries that caused me to have an unplanned hospital stay both times. I want to just sob my eyes out looking at the ugly things.