AIO PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME!!!!!!)

I’ve had a kid with her… because she acted like I wasn’t committed if I didn’t…. Then I dropped 2100$ on a diamond to propose because after the kid she still didn’t believe I loved her and thinks I’m lusting after other women ( we can’t even watch game of thrones) because she thinks I’m watching the women on the tv… so my entire life is ruled by her doubting me and trying to convince her and myself that I want other women and that I think her body is disgusting when she’s literally the only woman I see in the entire world. She gave me my first child and my first son and he makes me so happy but it’s been a year and every single day she tries to tell me I don’t like her body and I can’t even watch tv or go in public because she thinks I’m like “LUSTING”??? Again I’m in love with her and have been but we have a son and she has three girls from a past relationship…. I love her and I even love her girls even tho sometimes between her jealousy craziness I struggle but I try to be a father figure 100% of the time and still….. everyday…. At least twice she tells me how she hate her body and she wishes w could go back to when we first met, and I can’t watch tv TikTok, I can’t even have social media because it turns into why did you like this post from 5 years ago before you even knew me…:. What do I do? She gave me the most beautiful boy… my literal life… but she has become a literal toxic prison guard that follows me around 24 hrs a day trying to tell me that I am a lusting typical man questioning me everyday asking me if I still lover her if I still thinks she Pretty or this or that or if this happened or this would you still love me MY ENTIRE LIFE IS A FUCKING INTERRIGATION!!!!!!! but she gave me a perfect beautful baby boy who is my first and only child who I’d burn the whole world down for….. I’m drinking constantly to deal with it and chipping away…. We have an apartment together I feel. Stuck WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO PLEASE FUCKING HELP ME!!!!!! If you want screen shots I’ll get them but there’s so many I don’t even know where to start?