I made my cross today

I posted earlier this week asking for prayers. My PhD application was rejected twice, I am applying to a much more prestigious university. A professor there specialises in exactly my topic, I’m not joking, we were a near perfect match.

I sent her an email. Her response was cold, saying she was “near capacity”. She still asked me to send her my cv and PhD proposal to see if I was someone she was “available to supervise or not”. She also gave me advice, to collect all my 3 topics into a common topic. I did that and submitted everything within 2 hours.

Before getting rejected from the old university, I bought a sweater. Idk why I bought it but it just seemed nice. I only recently found out it was the colour of the university I’m now applying to. I hope it’s a sign but often it’s just coincidence.

This weekend I went to a monk who prayed for me (he has been with me since I was a child), and on my way home I wanted a cross. I went to the church bookstore, the religious gift sort was closed but the man gave me a box full of crosses for me to pick from (discarded). I picked a wooden cross with no chain.

I made a chain just now from thread. This cross isn’t a submission, it’s me trying to be more thankful and less critical.

I have sent a follow up to the lecturer today. I hope she has good news. If she says yes, I’m in, I meet the entry requirements and all I need is a supervisor to stamp it. I’m not sure if I’m good enough, but I’m trying my best.

I’m sorry for the long post. Please pray for me. It goes without saying that i genuinely pray for everyone in my prayers.