2 Questions.

I have two questions.

1. How do you deal with your balls feeling like they want to explode from withholding liquid? (And yes I do direct that energy into other things like the gym, boxing, meditation, etc) I also tried to masturbate with my imagination using past sexual experiences IRL but I feel that always led me back to porn so now I will not be doing that as well.

2. Why do I feel more depressed than usual after a few days from withholding? I go up to a week and feel so depressed that I end up giving in.