What do married subs do when thier partner is not into the lifestyle?

I’ve realized being a sub is part of my make up, or has become a mechanism for release and balance. When the doming is active and creative I feel like a happier more balanced person. I feel like it helps me. My wife saw it more as a game she was willing to indulge me with but I fear she’s not into it. While I really do believe that if she understood it better she could also gain a form of release or benefit. We have had a tough few years and I found the bonding was brining us closer.

She is clearly avoiding it so we spoke and she was sort of honest but also dismissive, I shared and she felt i was being unreasonable, I’ve been very wary of forcing things and as such its disappeared.

I however and craving it like crazy, I realize it’s more than just a game for me. It’s balance in a sense.

How do people navigate this? I’m finding myself domming myself and watching porn and wishing it was her and I. This can’t be good. But I can’t simply switch it off.

How have others handled it? Subs or dommes?