How to be a soft girl?

So I know the title sounds kinda dumb but I need help. So I (F18) was raised mostly by my dad. My parents are still together but my mom just wasn’t a mom and my dad doesn’t know how to raise a girl. He always acts like I’m just kinda a younger version of my older brother even though me and home couldn’t be more different. I love pink, makeup, hair care, and cute clothes. My biggest issue is that my dad just won’t let me have anything like that. Last time I tried to tell him I liked pink his answer was “I didn’t raise you like that.” My cuties thing I have is a really cute satchel bag my sister in law got me. But I still can’t use it. I just really wanna know how I can start being more girly, and actually enjoy the stuff I like. I’m trying to learn how to do makeup (with the very very limited makeup I have) and I’m trying to learn how to do more hairstyles! I’m really excited because I kinda learned how to do a bun with a claw clip recently! Any and all advice is appreciated!