Damn, I’m already addicted

First time today because I wanted to stop being a whiny bitch and start actually being a “real man” with “real pain” because thus far I’ve been nothing but a whiner.

I did 4, I want to add one more since I got triggered again but I’m trying to convince myself not to. 4 for every major heartbreak, because it’s my fault for chasing love I’m not allowed to have, my fault for loving what I shouldn’t, my fault for existing like this.

At least I keep this to a ritual of making myself remember my place and not a hobby.