Im a guy and my confession is iwant to be used and raped By male and female

Hello, I confess I want to be sexually used by males and females. To the point of forced and raped. I want to feel like a object. And usually im a alpha personality masculine and some people say intimidating but something about being used and/or raped makes me so hard and horny. Me imagining being forced to fuck and suck performing oral on both genders. And or at the same time is just to intoxicating.