I’ve been rotting in bed for the last week

It started with me being rejected from my family Christmas for asking them to accommodate my schedule.

Now my husband and I have been fighting. He’s gone during the week for work.

Yesterday he told me he’s not happy. I think he’s trying to figure out if he wants to stay in our marriage. I feel nothing.

So I’ve been rotting. I’m doing the bare minimum at work, then I sit or lay and watch tv. I barely cook for my kids (I don’t eat), I barely spend any actual time with them.

Everything is falling apart around me and I don’t feel anything. I’m completely numb, except for lacking motivation to do anything.

I don’t even know why I’m writing this. I guess I just needed to tell someone.