Being unemployed making me more suicidal

As if I didn’t already want to die. It’s so soul crushing being unemployed. I feel like a caged rat trapped. Every time I think I can get out of my living situation the world just fucks me over. Also it’s really boring. I have no money to do anything extra. And reading all day or watching YouTube can only entertain 1 person for so long. And I have no friends so it’s not like I can hang out with anyone

Also when you’re first unemployed people fill bad but at a certain point people don’t give a fuck and start blaming you for being poor and unemployed even though I’m looking everyday. I hate being alive. It shouldn’t be this hard just to live.