Searching for emotional support after Rafayel's root walkthrough [Major spoilers‼️]

Hi, fellow huntresses! I am new to LADS, I’ve started playing a bit less than 2 weeks ago. I’ve fallen in love (hahaha) with this game in a blink of an eye and was hyperfixated on it all this time. Surprisingly for me, my heart was instantly captured by cutie fishy Rafayel. I was captivated by his charisma, and gentle but mischievous nature. The “Sweet Overdrive” event definitely made my obsession with him even worse and undoubtedly “improved our bond”, hahah. 

And then THIS happened. 7-10 chapter, 8 chapter and Rafayel’s route “Land of the Secret Flames”. And now I feel really bad, even heartbroken maybe, so I want to discuss these parts of plot and maybe get some support 😭 

‼️Warning, major Main Story chapters 7-8, “Land of the Secret Flames” and Rafayel Myths 2-3 spoilers 

!To make it clear: I understand that there are no problems with Rafayel or his story. My troubles are definitely my issues of which I am fully aware of. To note: yep, I was in 3 years-long therapy in the light of this problem.!<

!So I hope that my experience won’t make upset any of fellow Raf girlies, I don’t want to say anything bad bout’ our beloved fishy😭💔 I’d rather search support in order to continue falling in love with Raf and the game.!<

!First of all, I just can’t process the way he changes from sweet mischievous fishy to the fearsome sea god. The dialogue underwater in 7-10 made me feel very confused and even helpless. Yep, I know that this episode is motivated by Raf's personality from his second myth, but I still feel very bad after this. I’m missing a dialogue in which MC and Raf could have discussed this episode. !<

!The other thing that hurt my feelings was the scene in “The Nest”, depicting Rafayel who not only lets MC drink that strange black liquid, but also acts like he has sold the MC for something from (?) shady man from EVER. Yep, he believes that she is strong enough to survive, but for me it still looks scary. Am I the only one who can’t live with it? !<

!I hoped that “Land of the Secret Flames” would answer my questions and give me the proper dialogue regarding the episodes from 7-8 chapters, but my hopes were dashed. !<

!I’ve looked through the Raf’s myths, and in my opinion the events depicted in them do not explain the Rafayel’s behaviour in the “main timeline”.!<

!Yep, I understand that these episodes hurt me so badly cause of my past trauma, it’s about me in the first place. But I want to delve into Rafayel’s lore and continue to romance this rascally fish, imagining that after “Land of the Secret Flames” Raf and MC have settled all these past-life problems and started happy and healthy relationships. !<

!Maybe I sound like a crazy delusional girl, but after all this stuff I’ve lost my trust in Rafayel. And I desperately want to bring it back. So, fellow Raf’s mermaids, can you please help me to process this experience? Maybe I’ve missed something important about Raf’s motivation or some important details in his route. I just simple girl who wants to continue to love our comfy fishy 😭💔!<