Is it dysphoria?

Do I have have gender dysphoria like wanting a deep voice, a flat chest but also long hair and no beard.

The thought of transitioning really frightens me lile I do NOT want to take hormones or do surgery or change my name or out myself to anyone but at the same time I want to be a man but a natural one. Idk the thought of transitioning doesn’t really speak to me I really don’t want to do it I mean this could also be bc my fear of hell and rejection I had some „traumatic“ experiences within being in the closet and outing whatever I detranistined once shortly after those experiences. Idk sometimes I do look at transitioning videos and envy them but mostly it is my internalized transphobia speaking which I actively make worse so idk is it even dysphoria or am I suffering for nothing?

(I don’t spread transphobic content I just consume it)