I’m not sure what to make of this and my head is spinning.

I don’t normally post on reddit but I’m so confused and hurt. I’ve been dealing with a very difficult breakup that happened almost a couple of weeks ago. I fell in love with my boyfriend(now ex) and I thought he felt the same way. He treated me amazingly and we never once argued in the 4 months that we dated. He told me 1 month in the relationship that he loved me and as crazy as it sounds, I felt the same way. Then he would go on to ask how many kids I want or where I want to live about 2 months in. Things were going fast but I was blind to that. I was finally truly happy with someone and had no doubt in my mind that everything was going great for us. Then about a couple of weeks ago he broke up with me and told me he fell out of love two weeks before the breakup. I was his first serious relationship and he told me that he “still wants to see who’s out there” and described feeling that I was probably not the “one.” I was devastated. I truly thought he loved me and I was worth fighting for to him. We went no contact for a week and I asked him to exchange stuff on last weekend. He agreed and also asked if we could talk. I agreed to talk to him and we met up a few days ago. He told me that he’s been confused about love. He told me that he “truly loves” me and that I’m “worth fighting for.” He told me to think about what he said for as long as I needed so I did. I believed every word he said. We just talked yesterday and he told me he regretted what he said and has been “confused” and that he loves me as a person but not a partner. He apologized for doing this to me but to be honest his apology doesn’t matter to me. I’ve been so confused from all of this and now I definitely know he’s not the one. I love him and I can’t hate him but I am disgusted by him. I wish him the best in life and I hope he finds the one but I can’t help feeling like a fool.