do i wanna be a writer

link 1: https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/yuU7qp5q3O

link 2: https://www.reddit.com/r/OCPoetry/s/owFHFgBLwY

I dont enjoy writing, i am compelled to

I dislike my works, spit on the page

A lesser writer would not be disgusted by their works

A better writer would not care at all

My writing filled with shame,guilt and self hate

A lesser person would write about hate towards others

A better person would not include hatred at all

Why do i feel so compelled to write?

Can i not emote, be ordinary

Talk about my feelings, share grief, happiness

Or am i to be a danger to myself,perennially

Writing is a chore to most

I lie in the margins, forced to slave away

Make ends meet, survive my brain