Romantic loneliness

I’ve been on and off NoFap for about 3 years now. I’ve had my ups and downs during that time. But recently, I’ve been thinking about quitting. Because I’ve realised the root cause of my addiction to porn and masturbation.

It’s not boredom, nor is it stress, nor is it horniness, nor is it just plain addiction to dopamine or whatever. Those may be triggers, but not the root cause. The root cause is that, I’m just so deprived of love, companionship, and intimacy. I realised this because I always have this empty feeling inside me, which the gym, making money, doing hobbies, socialising, friends/family, etc. just can’t fill. Except porn and masturbation, which helps numb that empty void inside me.

Now I’m asking you who maybe have been in the same boat as me, or those who just want to share their thoughts: why should I keep participating in NoFap? Is there any reason(s)? Because not having any type person in my life OR numbing porn, just leaves me feeling extremely empty nonstop.