am i ugly or i just dont know how to smile ?

hello everyone. i'm not posting a picture but a concern that genuinely keeps me up at night. i'm not photogenic at all and the only way i could look slightly better is when i use filters. im not confident with the raw camera at all. how do i achieve that perfect picture ? my smile is lopsided and if i try to hold it still my left side of my smile starts to hurt. my nose looks fat in pictures which in general it isnt. and my eyes look so dead although i believe i have pretty eyes. i dont know why this happens 🥲