A few months ago I apostatized because I couldn't accept certain dogmas, but every moment I am haunted by the need to returning, however it's confronted with a inadequacy feeling

I don't think it would be worthy to specify my disagreements. But I'd like to know if it would be permissible to compensate for this intellectual rejection with a practical resignation, where I fully adapt my values and behavior to the dogmas and commandments of the church? In that case, could I still consider myself a Catholic? If so, how do you suggest I deal with this?