The Breakup of 2025

It’s towards the end of the year.

This year starting out felt like a slow burn of pain and confusion. I’ll never forget the way i felt in those harsh moments..It made me stronger than ever.

During these holiday festivities, I do think of him how it was our months of spending time with our families together and enjoy the cute moments of the holidays. I never thought I could get that with someone, but I did. And who’s to say I’ll never experience it again. I hope next year i’m giving my self a chance to accept the love of others. I understand time heals but being ready is a choice.

I come to accept i’ll never understand why he left. It his lost 1000%. Were young growing as people but man, i learned to be selfless. It’s time to think about me.. I catch myself smiling at the old memories for some reason; my head decides to film in waves. I truly love this man. But I also love the version he brought of me.

I also will never forget how you playing “All I need” by Radiohead otw to my place to breakup with me. The whole thing just left me in pure confusion, shock, anger. But for some reason I can’t come to hate you not one bit. My mind can’t afford to hate you, you were my person and the person i trusted and loved deeply. We shared many memories that’s not something you forget.

I hope you’re doing great things in life. Really. I do. This better have been all worth my pain for your peace. I’ll make this time alone worth it ; my life. my worth. my happiness.

I have no way of reaching out, like i ever was you have me blocked on everything. ( I did nothing to this man)

I listened to your words, saw your actions. I went radio silent. It’s what you wanted, I was never going to chase althought deep down. I would’ve done anything to speak to you again. But for what? you live your life everyday to not speak to me. Here i am still writing about this :)

It’s time. I’m sorry for anyone who went through a discarded breakup. It gets better we are the ones on top at the end :) 🫶🏻