Stopped my sadhana

Namaskaram,

It been over 9 months that I haven't done any sadhana. Occasionally 2-3 times a month I touch miracle of mind for 15 mins at a stretch. Other than that I don't do any practices. I definitely see the consequences of it in various fields of life but 1 thing has stayed constant in all these months that everyday, there has not been a single day when words like "shiva" "shambho" haven't come out of my mouth and that with with full intensity from within even if it's not audible to any but as if your whole body just spills out shiva or shambho with any conscious effort. I feel if one has been fundamentally touched this deep by a guru then you cant waiver off the path no matter what happens in your life because your being is set on fire. At one point I was a very intense and regular practitioner of hatha yoga, kriyas and meditation along with volunteering. Then something ground breaking experience happened with me and since sadhana or no sadhana I'm always fundamentally on. Not organised and energized in the same way as with regular sadhana but ON. I wish everyone experiences this in a protected and gradual atmosphere so it doesn't ruin your life as it did for me but becomes a huge stepping stone in your growth and wellbeing of other.

Shambho.