Just broke no contact

As it suggests I just broke no contact, I really wish I didn’t have to but it was eating away at me.

It had been 2 weeks since we last spoke and a month since she ended our 7 year relationship.

Long story short 1 week after we broke up, we found out my sister might have cancer. Due to my mum dealing with depression for over 10 years, and me trying to be strong for her I’d been bottling everything up.

I went and dropped some stuff round with a note and a present from my mum. She text back saying thanks and she’ll text my mum.

I text back saying not to as my mum looks at her like a daughter and I didn’t want to make her hurt more.

In a moment of weakness I said about my sisters situation and I was really struggling and needed a hug.

She said she was so sorry and if I needed she was free all weekend and could be around for me, but I said no as I knew it would make it worse.

Fast forward to the beginning of this week and thankfully my sisters scan had come back all clear.

However I’ve had this thing nagging me that if the shoe was on the other foot it would be eating me alive. I also know it would be affecting her too and I don’t think it’s fair for someone to hold that burden.

She has been nice and also said she’s got a few other things of mine that she can either drop off or leave outside. Which I’ve told her I’m not ready to see her yet, part of me feels like I’m being weak and should just ask her to leave them outside. But at the same time this has been my person for the last 7 years and we’re both hoping for friendship in the future.

I guess I’m just looking for validation, as I knew this would hurt me. As I’m the one that’s asked for no contact, but I guess does anyone think I’ve done the right thing in easing that worry from her.