I may be Trans but I kinda don't wanna be

Okay so. Keeping it short, I never had any like queer feelings till like the end of my high school where I figured out that I'm Bi.

But now, 2 years later, I've realized I just wanna be girly and feel girly.

But I don't wanna be Trans. Mostly because of what that entails socially.

I'm Indian, my parents are conservative as hell.

I told my friends I'm Non binary and i do dress feminine as nuanced as I can without arousing suspicion but- I don't know.

I just wanted to tell someone, get some thoughts on it.

Also since I'm seen as a man in my family, as an Indian, in my religion, during certain prayers and rituals that are required, (I'm not religious but my parents are very very religious so if I say no, I'm gonna get disowned...) I have to be shirtless.

The reason I'm saying this is cause some people told me that I can still transition while still being in boymode when I see my parents but any "change" and they'll find out yk.