I still miss my ex purely for the sex

My bad for the length, I’m just venting gang. “Too Long; Didn’t Read” (TL;DR) at the bottom.

I know this might sound crazy but I’m 2 years into my relationship and I high key miss my ex purely for the sex.

We broke up after opening the relationship. We were solid and having our fun, together and separately, until i caught feelings and then my ex had an issue with that. Crazy part is she already had 2 boyfriends she caught feelings for at that point and i didn’t bat an eye. She was giving head and doing everything i always asked her to do with me while still never doing it for me because “it’s easier with someone who doesn’t already know me.”

Well, after talking about how it made me feel neglected she kept doing it and getting carried away with sexting dudes. Now, you can clown me all you want but I was all with the shit, i just didn’t like being ignored with the way she went about it.

In the end, she told me she never wanted to share me, just wanted a one sided thing, which is wild because i cool with just doing 3somes or letting her mess with girls.

Outside of this train wreck our sex lives were fucking amazing. Both into wildly kinky shit. Fucked any time, anywherever. We recorded everything and were on some my eyes only movie shit.

It was golden. But when everything went left i went with the other girl, who’s honestly a better fit. Understands me so well, love her to death, match made in heaven type shii… until we get to sex.

Before we were going crazy, but now it’s just the same stuff each time. She’s not with group shit, head game is okay, more of a pillow princess, lets me do what i like but isn’t really interested herself so it doesn’t feel the same.

But worst of all, she’s not spontaneous. That’s something i always loved in my relationships. I wanna randomly throw you in a position that hits in a different way. I wanna see your eyes widen and roll back because you didn’t expect me to fold you into a pretzel. Tie you up and use your favorite toy until you’re melting. Shit like this.

My ex would wake me up with head. Send the wildest pics from work, be in lingerie bent over as soon as i walk through the door, she’s choking me while i choke her during the act, getting as messy as we both liked and going rounds, etc. But my favorite part? She gave the best head ever.start quality sloppy. I literally get bored when other girls give me that treatment and go gummie mode mid-slime. She was a goddamned goddess.

So now i don’t ask for that and it’s pretty much just different variations of backshots and missionary. I do get to indulge in that feet play though. She appreciates the massages and actually likes getting her toes sucked so it’s a nice way to explore a kink but it’s just nowhere near the same. She doesn’t really have any kinks and doesn’t watchso she doesn’t get inspired to try new things like all my exes did. It’s kinda formulaic and I love trying new things without having to try new people.

I don’t miss my ex, i just wish i had the same level of sexual compatibility. I wanna crave you every moment of every day and come home to please you.

TL;DR:

I miss the sexual compatibility with my ex, but know we had good reason to break up.

I wish i had that compatibility with my current gf, who’s fun but not on the same timing. It’s a bit disappointing but doesn’t takeaway from everything i love about her.