Saw photos of my ex's wedding and I felt relieved instead of sadness.

Hey, I don't know if this is relevant to this sub but just needed a place to vent this somewhere and close this chapter of my life. He was the one I had thought will be my forever. We became quite close in a short period and shared a lot of happy memories. The relationship has a lot of firsts for me.

The breakup happened two years ago which was a bit unexpected for me and without any closure. Even though I have fairly become occupied with my life, I did not date anyone during this time. I invested the time in healing myself rather than trying to move on by being in another relationship.

Anyway, one of our common friends shared photos from my ex's wedding and I thought I would overcome with hurt and sadness. However, I felt a sense of relief instead (which came as a surprise to me). Looking at the photos, I imagined myself in place of the bride and felt suffocated. He was a traditionalist and I, far from it. I am the kind of person who would want a simple ceremony, if I were to get married or preferably a court marriage. The photos showed me how different we were and if I had agreed to compromise and adjust according to his ways, I would have still had him but then that life would have been intolerable for me. Also, coincidentally today morning I was listening to a podcast explaining Carl Jung's theories and again I felt like if I was with him, he probably would have made fun of me and not understood why I liked it. He was the kind of person who was more into parties.

This healing journey has been quite tough for me with its ups and downs. Finally, it felt good today that I wasn't affected negatively by his life update. The woman he married seems nice and caring and I hope he treats her right. With this, I hope I can close this chapter forever in my life.