Update: Blanket/Heated Table

So I have been back twice since the my MT started using a blanket and heated table (temps outside are now in the 30s/40s most days).

Mixed signals? He continues to press his legs into my hands. At the beginning of the massage he’s always consistent about covering my arms as he works through the sheet, but as he progresses and the sheet naturally lifts away he allows it to leave my hands uncovered before pressing further in.

On this third visit he focused more on my completely undraped glutes including occasionally moving into the exposed cleft which is new.

He also used the top of the table more frequently, pushing hands from legs to upper thighs, and pulling me up for a trunk stretch using my arms behind my back, then kneading my lower back while sitting on the back of my thighs.

He also kept full pressure on my head this time as he was working down my back from the head of the massage table.

One thing that got awkward was the heated bean bags. He didn’t place them on top of the blanket this time but instead on just the sheet after re-draping my back. That got too hot and I asked him to removed the bags and the sheet so I could cool down. It lasted for maybe a minute while he “refresh massaged” my back and then recovered me with the sheet.

I don’t expect or want a HE from this MT but I do have this lowkey fantasy where he lets me touch him some during the massage. I haven’t really given it an aggressive attempt and after reading stories and advice here, I won’t push it out of respect for him.

But I can’t figure out what his desire is versus mine. So it’s this strange situation for now where I just keep wondering.

(Note: He insists on keeping me draped and any time my genitals are exposed he immediately covers them up.)

I would appreciate anyone’s thoughts on this. It’s sort of becoming a mental distraction now from the actual session. Should I stop going?