Victim blaming

The amount of emotional violence I experienced because of what he said was unforgivable given my circumstances. Then when soulless victim blamers and enablers try to spin the narrative and paint you as the one to blame it’s disgusting. And then people who can’t even fathom what you’ve lived through who try to position as noble and paint you as a some dumb little girl who was just failed by everyone in her life and left vulnerable for evil people is also unforgivable. Can’t wait to throw those people away. They rip you of your dignity and humanity and choose whatever role they want you to play so they can live with themselves. Fucking abominable.

And this all ties back to familial abuse and C-ptsd cause if not for their: boundary violations, scapegoating, fear, sexism, emotional manipulation, treating my needs as a burden, enmeshment, silent treatment, emotional invalidation, homophobia, guilt tripping, chronic double standards, conditional love and covert control, I would’ve never been susceptible to being hurt by people like that in the first place.

But I know, it’s “my fault” for being a target. Not their fault for making me a victim. They forced me into a role I never asked for and a life I never wanted. And that I’ll never forget. I deserved SO much better. And while they’ll never humble themselves to admit that, I will.