I think Im an actual psychopath

As I grow up Im starting to lose bits of my sanity more and more, what were common tantrums for a 14 year old now are death threats and mentally unstable behavior when feeling any bit of anger, I can’t be angry without wishing any sort of sick and twisted fates on those who made me feel frasturated at the moment, and it started to feel worse and worse. Im getting excited from thinking about things no sane human being should get excited for, I feel almost no empathy towards people or victims ot whatever, I literally laugh at any misfortune that I see on the news this is actually making me happy seeing people suffer in sort of ways. And its not like its inexcusable, I’ve been made to be like this, life has been absolutely hell for me since I was a little kid, if someone went through the things I went they would too act like a mentally unstable psychopath, and the thing is that Im not trying to seek help, I don’t wanna help myself, even here Im even sharing this experience so people who feel like me could just relate and let their frasturation together because lets be real, people like us can’t be comforted.