My ex husband is a porn addict. My new boyfriend is a sex addiction…

A little about myself, I am 29F, educated, good looking, loyal, adventurous,kid of divorced family, raised by neglected mother, and is a traditional woman in marriage.

My ex husband: high ranking social status, goal oriented, couch potato, avoidant attachment, narcissist, porn and game addict.

My new boyfriend: entry level designer, kind, good with words, caring, calm, anxious attachment, alcoholic, possibly mentally ill, sever sexual addiction.

Plot: I left my ex husband due to his narcissistic tendencies, hot temper, problems arising from porn addiction. We live like roommates, he doesn’t say or do anything affectionate towards me. The only time he really tried to have sex with me was when we tried to conceive our first child. I found his burner phone looking for and talking to escorts for years. He also follows random girls on social media.

I swore to myself that I got sick of men and won’t look for another person anytime soon. Little did I know, I unexpectedly fell in love again with my first crush in high school. He seems to be caring and genuine at first. He also takes care of my daughter very well. I know he has a sex addiction but i thought it was fine because he only did it with me. The turning point was when we had a big fight, he jugged a lot of alcohol and jerked off to my underwear, asking me to send my friend’s number for him to fuck and he’ll pay, telling me maybe he’ll go to a third world country to marry some woman that looks like me because he was too horny. I know he has mental illness because of the subtle signs he showed whenever i dont pay attention to him.

The two person who i thought were supposed to be the love of my life turned out to be like this. Is there any man out there who doesn’t have any sexual issues and still functions like a regular person?

I grew up without family love so I find myself always desperately putting my trust in another man. They already knew this and still do this to me. I really just want an ordinary happy family where two people genuinely care for the other person. Why is this so hard…