HSV2 positive

25 F tested positive for the first time the other day. It’s weird because I got tested out of routine, I had a little bit of a smell, knew it was BV but had them go ahead and run an STD panel. I’m tested fairly regularly, after every new partner and so forth. I was tested 6 months prior and was clean. In between both of these tests, I have only been with two people. Neither have shown any symptoms or had any sort of break out. They are both getting tested this week. I am just confused and a little heart broken. I have gotten around for years, hell, I got pregnant at 16. I am the queen of casual sex. I have never previously had any sort of std, I thought I was being smart about it. Protection, regular screenings, etc. Yet somehow during the least sexually active time I’ve ever had in my life, I manage to pick up herpes from one of the two good FRIENDS that I have been sleeping with on and off. I don’t see either one of them that often either. Depending on their test results, I might get retested. I think that is just the denial stage of grief talking. Realistically, I have it for sure, just haven’t had a breakout yet. What’s bothering me isn’t the potential of a breakout. I can deal with that, I’ve dealt with worse. Wouldn’t be the end of the world for me. The thought of having to tell someone before I can just sleep with them? That is messing with me BAD. I know there is such a stigma around it and I live in such a small town that I know if I told the wrong person, the rumor mill would start running. I am so scared of the rejection that might come from after I tell someone I am positive.