43 parent and just exhausted

I just need a place to complain. I got sick a week and a half before Thanksgiving with a bad headcold, cancelled Thanksgiving, and eventually was diagnosed with bronchitis. Just got done with my antibiotics and woke up with a stomachache today and had horrible painful diarrhea. Turns out a gastro thing is making its way through our region. I have two kids - 7 and 10 - both germaphobes because I am. Every time I go to their school for a class party, only my kids wash hands before eating, and a lot of the kids have visibly dirty hands and black under their fingernails. It is year ten of dealing with horrible seasonal illnesses and I am just so depressed. I coughed so hard over the last three weeks that I peed myself. I have bladder prolapse from having kids. It is just too much. I am just so sick of feeling tired and sick most of the year. I track my wellness in a spreadsheet, and I have been ill with something (outside of my chronic stuff) every month this year. Thinking about going on Prozac or something until my kids turn 18 to numb the remainder of my parenting experience . I used to be on another anxiety med but it made me suicidal.