I can't express my fem side in my current situation.

So I've been living in a (mens) homeless shelter for a couple months now. All things considered I could be in a much worse place - I moved states away from home to get here and it's opened a lot of doors, there is an actual queer community here with regular events that I'm able to get to with public transportation. There was no queer community, events, or public transportation to speak of back home.

The only thing bugging me is, being in this shelter I cannot do the things I would do to beautify myself when I had my own place. I lost my makeup in the move, I don't have the space, time, or products necessary to remove hair, and I managed to smuggle a couple outfits but I face ostracization if anybody here sees me in them. It's a bit of a bummer. I'm so close to presenting in the way that I want to that I can literally touch it, but at the same time I feel further away from self actualization. It doesn't help that I look like a total normie when I go to said queer events. I feel as judged there as I would when I'd go out in makeup in my hometown.