Everybody sucks

of course you know the fear mongering that comes every post-thanksgiving where there's sickness everywhere and it's a worse strain than the last, whatever. it's manageable. its just flu 90% of the time, yet somehow i manage to be surrounded by the most sickest people of my life.

at school thursday one of my friends, who i only see during my band period, was unwell. i noticed he didn't have his instrument out and he looked awkward so i asked him what's the incident (considering he tends to just forget his instrument a lot, so i tease him)? he tells me he isn't feeling well and i just figured "oh, a fever. nothing wrong with it" until he starts joking about v* all over me and pretends to cough in my direction. he mentions how his stomach hurts and i immediately panic. i feel bad because i caused a bit of a scene in class, but i tried to play it off as being a mother hen. he moved to the back of the class and nothing happened, but he kept clutching his stomach a few times i looked back. later that day after school, he v*. fortunately i wasn't around for it and he only told us through a message, but i was worried about being contaminated whenever he coughed on me.

then my little sister is feverish. i can't blame her, but she mentioned being nauseous that same thursday while i was trying to eat downstairs, and i freaked out where i just didn't finish my dinner and hid in my room for the rest of the night. i didn't see her all day yesterday so... as of writing this now, she tu* literally at this hour. i don't feel comfortable walking anywhere.

now my two other close friends mentioned feeling sick today, and one of them is at the mall i was planning on going to. we didn't plan to meet, it was coincidence, but... why would she go out if she's sick??? the other friend was messaging us in a gc about how bad he felt in terms of just body pain, and the other friend replied with how they're both feeling the same way as the other friend i talked about here first.

now it just feels like everyone is being too careless. why go out when you're sick? why not ask to go home early when everything hurts? why can't they cough the other way? and why can't they just be wary with us? i don't get sick with the flu often and when i do it's not even that bad, but i heard too many instances where v* is a symptom, even from online friends. it doesn't help that im on my period and my stomach just hurts all the time -_-. it doesn't help that im going to a mall, where i tend to get overwhelmed and feel sick just from how nervous i get. nothing really feels clean and im worried i just look crazy for panicking over something people genuinely don't care about.