Rage

My brothers, god bless their hearts know something is off with me. I seem happier people say, a few day they never have seen me this happy.

I struggle to comprehend it all, my own life, my relationships. I mean fuck being in poly relationships for 5 years, i think i nearly had double my own lifespan in relationships if i add them up. Being able to be on good terms with most of them, thats a comfort that is hard to describe.

I only feel my blood boiling when i think of cass, to think she was close with people like that, to ignore boundaries and manipulate me. Im lucky to have gotten through it all and make it on to newer partners. Now its riding with my coworkers and friends until the end.