All i have are fading memories

I guess over 5 years now since I’ve seen you. I remember I used to write you millions of letters but I’ve stopped bc my thoughts have drifted to someone else. I still think about you when I hear some songs, it gives a rush of memories. The last time I was with my friends that asked me about you. I told them it’s been years we’ve seen each other.

I don’t think what to do because I’m forgetting you and falling for another man. It’s not like I expected it to happen. I used to feel so guilty about it. It’s just been so long and I forgot your face but I do love you.

I swear I will always have love for you. Despite barely speaking i truly consider you my first love. Falling in love with you was much a magical experience, like nothing I’ve felt before in my whole life. You made me feel safe and secure with your love. I felt like i could truly let myself fall deep in love with you and I did. I like you and your friends are sweet. You somehow got me to fall in love with you cosplaying as a homeless man. The Rangers will always be my favorite hockey (unless you switch teams). I think I’ll love you for eternity, you had such a significant impact on my life here.

I’m just curious, why’d you come here if you were never planning to stay. You don’t know how fucking in love with you I was. You came and left so fast, that the only thing I had was watching hockey games that you weren’t even in. You gave me nothing. I was thinking about you everyday, writing you 70+ love letters the moment I met you in the hospital. The day you left. Why come here if you were just going to leave like that and have me thinking about you everyday for five years. I don’t even remember your face, if you walk pass me in the street I will not even recognize you. Can you blame me for falling for someone who was always there, while you weren’t? All I have are fading memories.