AITAH for liking a guy that I like first in forever??

Hey Reddit I need some help?

AITAH for liking a guy that I like first in forever??

Hi Reddit and this is my first time ever doing anything like this.. I lwk can’t ask anyone due to this shame. Lmao

My friend likes this guy and I have like him WAYY before she done so and the whole friend group knows I have and even her but I kinda “stop” ? I kinda started liking him all over again, and she told me how she likes him, which kinda hurt me a bit so I just pretended like it didn’t hurt me.

And I know he likes her a bit too, I can’t stop that or be mad at her for that, love is love.

But I do know she can’t really date him?

I like this boy for like 3 in a half years I dated others knowing I still like him and I know it’s fuck up but almost all those guys cheated on me or played me, which doesn’t make it better but my feelings to him was always mid low and I like him and he was always there for me. He was always there to make sure I was okay and good, we were even each other friend valentine once’s..? We even share passwords with each other. I was there when him and his other girl he dated and they broke up.

Everyone knew I was madly in love with him but him.. he knew kinda? But he was so immature back than,he changed now which is okay we’re okay, I lied to him telling him I never like him when in fact I did. When he always treated me wrong for others etc I was always nice to him.

I realize more stuff than anyone with him, I know his favorite games, what he said to my 2 in half years ago, what he does when he stress and when he even stress he does a little thing with his leg and his head, or even when he upset I’m the only one who is always there for him. He very valuable with me and I am a little, I always now when he sad or pretending for others. Stay up for his birthday to be the first one to say happy birthday and give him gifts. but I feel like I’m only there when he upset? He barely talks to me and when he does it’s something bother him..

Should I give up? Or should I tell him and fuck up our friendship. I genuinely can’t be near him and see him fall in love with someone else.. when it hurts me knowing I like him for so long and did a lot. He hugs her and acts like a couple with her. I feel like a fuck up person knowing my friend likes him? But is it so wrong when she knew I like him for so long..? So would I be the asswhole for confessing to him.?