Mommy issues ig

When I was a child, I experienced abuse from my mom that crossed many boundaries. She forced me into situations I didn’t want to be in, humiliated me, and made me do things that felt wrong and violating. At the time, I didn’t understand what was happening, and I felt scared, confused, and ashamed. Over the years, this has left me with a sense of emotional disconnection. I often feel like I lack excitement, empathy, regret, and shame.

She sexually assaulted and sexually abused me in many ways. I hate the fact it DIDN'T traumatized me more, I wish it did so I could feel like my experience was truly horrible. My past trauma doesn't bother me and the only time it did is when I found out what she was doing to me when I was younger was actually sexual assault. I sobbed and was shaken but that genuinely lasted around 1-2 minutes and then I moved on. I wish I didn't move on from things so quickly and actually could feel more pain LDK why tho.

Random vent but I honestly wanna hear about y'all's mothers.