I feel overwhelmed and conflicted about my ex

I broke up with this guy who I’d dated for almost a year and it’s been a few months and I still feel sad about it. We are still friends but everything just feels different. I broke up with him because he was always quite rude and jealous, and wasn’t really the best at getting consent, but I still really do miss him and I definitely love him still and just feel so sad and overwhelmed like every day.