Recurring disturbing dreams since age 6

I feel a bit weird posting about this, but from age 6 i have repeatedly (im 19 now) always had recurring dreams of old men or adult men SAing me. In primary school i would get my friends to role play pretend kidnapping me and then went online to further rp this with people. I had experience CSA from another child but no memories of an adult doing it. Would fantasise about being kidnapped or groomed aswell. I still get it to this day but i can recognise it’s not what i actually want. I have suspected for a while something worse than the abuse i endured as kid from my parents happened like SA before i was fully conscious but i’m not sure