Is this what life feels like? Is this what health feels like?

For the first time in a year I made my way to the pool to finally go swimming.

Swimming was always my favourite activity outdoors. But for as long as I can remember I’ve been too tired and stressed to even think about it.

The past few weeks I have been pacing myself and sleeping a bit better. I’ve been taking myself out of two years of chronic stress from living alone and having cfs and no one to help me.

I’ve been to the depths of my soul when I was struggling. I would watch people living with joy and wonder how the fuck is there anything to be joyful about.

So today I woke up feeling well. I decided to make the most of this rare opportunity and I went to the pool.

I feel present. I feel the sun on my body. I feel the water on my skin. I feel happy and relaxed and like I’m not in a stress state from pushing myself to get here. Usually I push and crash. That’s all I’ve known.

Is this what normal feels like?