The one thing I fear the most…

So when I was little my brothers scared the day lights out of me with Michal Myers…..now that I have this gift of seeing spirits in all ways. Why is he like the one thing I fear the most. I know he’s not real but my mind has created this sense that he’s real and always watching over me and standing in a corner like I have a dark energy that’s always around and I don’t know the meaning of this but it’s been going on since the death of my son and it’s reoccurring way more than it should. Can someone tell me why this keeps happening to me; I go to therapy and to a psychiatrist as well twice a week but knowing that there is a lot of the unknown on the other side of the veil it has made me question everything in life. I also use to be an avid amphetamine user and was wondering if that could be a possibly of messing with my brain as well. So all answers are welcome. 🙏