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Have you ever seen a ghost who you know in your soul though youve never met? 

I’m 37 and i define myself by my fathers trauma

I’m 37 and I somehow am I am I am I am my mother 

My husband thinks he knows me yet I don’t even know my toe

I think I recognize myself in a m a n i never knew

He’s so young it makes me sob

Truly. I can’t 

even 

be

I sob 

every 

time I think about how young

he 

fucking 

~ w a s . . . 

I didn’t start my career until 30. He was dead at 30. 

I see a ghost

I mourn a ghost

I never met this ghost

Do I wish I met this ghost

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Am I obsessed with                                                                                                          “ death “

Because

Of

This

Ghost

Why do I also feel like his grandma

Why can’t I be normal and want a baby

Instead I want to tarot the dead to death

Look, 

I inherited a plant the other day

From my 

motherinlaw

I actually do love my

motherinlaw

!

?

(yes)

but

every plant I inherit 

ends up dea\

d

th

-ly

Is there a reason to feel so deeply

or do I need to dial it all down

I cannot 

decipher

if 

remembering

(n o s t a l g i a)

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