[21M] Conflicted about my relationship and intimacy with my [19F] girlfriend — need blunt advice

Im having a bit of a relationship struggle and i need some fresh eyes on my experience be blunt and honest if you think im overreacting or misplacing my feelings

(lore) Okay so it all started in 2023 a few years ago

I Had just ended my previous and only girlfriend of three years and for the first time in those three years i started talking to other women.

after a while i met this girl whom i instantly liked. She was cool pretty and her personality matched very well with mine. I started to like her.

But i shut down any romantic possibilities because i had just come out of a long relationship not willing to risk the potential great relationship i could have with this new girl. i wanted some time.

With this after a while we lost contact apart from chats here and there for about two years

after that period we got in touch again and it suddenly felt like we never broke that contact at sll and we confessed our feelings after having something of a talking stage for six months we finally made it official in 24th of april 2025 its been like seven months now.

What im conflicted about is how she has been as a person as time progressed (lore) Here comes the issue

So when we met one of the bigger things we shared interest in was libido and intimacy. This was a pretty big part of our relationship and it was pretty frequent and consistent at the start.

but ever since weve gotten in a relationship officially ive been turned down she hasnt initiated any time and she hasnt been affectionate towards me at all. Ive mentioned this to her multiple times and ive told her that its okay if she has a low libido but she could atleast make it up by reassuring me with self initiated kisses or hugs / words of affirmation like telling me she loves me etc. But none of this has happened in its stead. If anything ive been asking her multiple times to atleast do so for me because im not feeling like a special person in her life rather just a roommate who she shares a space with.

First she said its all because she felt like she wasnt a good girlfriend to me and didnt deserve being intimate with me? which i find absolute bs because i had yet to experience this bad girlfriend she mentioned and unless its something she did behind my back i know of no situation where ive told her anything but how grateful i am of her and how happy i am to have her as my girlfriend because it really was a dream come true kinda relationship. So this really didnt make any sense to me.

She then blamed all of this on the pill (is what ive made out of what she told me)when i brought it up for the so manieth time but this time more seriously and its been a month+ of her being off the pill and there has been little to no change at all and if she sometimes surprisingly says that she loves me i cant really believe it anymore bc i feel like i forced her to say it and it isnt as genuine as it used to be.

She also only initiates kisses and gets sweet when she wants something from me as a form of payment which ive expressed to her that i really dislike

But i love her so much and on how ive been feeling for a while incase i mess up the future

what do you make of this? ill take all the advice i can get to hopefully make something out of this.

ill happily answer questions if i lack any context im just at a loss right now and dont know what to do or dont.

Tysm in advance guys :)