23 [F4M] #California + open to long distance

Hello, I apologize this might be long. So if you don't want to read all of it please scroll.

I feel awful. I feel like I've been carrying my family without getting much in return. I've been carrying the emotional weight of my family for my whole life and I'm exhausted. I honestly just want a way out of this. I am not sure what I am going to do yet. I'm not sure if anyone can relate. I'd like to find someone I can build something real with. I don't think I can do that with my family.

I feel emotionally exhausted. I'd like someone I can confide in because I don't really have anyone to do that at the moment. I am getting a therapist again soon though! I'll be completely honest I'm diagnosed bi polar. I'm on medication. I speculate that I have other stuff going on. I want to get a brain scan done but that's besides the point of this post. I have been in therapy since I was 15 years old. I have worked a lot of myself internally. It is just extremely hard to do all this work on the inside and your outside (my family) doesn't grow with you. It's caused me a lot of emotional distress lately. It's hard for me to even express. Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy with the shenanigans my family does. 😭 I really hope someone can relate to that.

I am trying really hard to work on myself despite everything going on. I am trying my best to loose weight. Working on my mental health. I am working on getting into community college. I really just want someone I can actually grow with! I am tired of feeling alone.

Okay I'm done venting ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ I don't want too much personal info on here. DM and put in some effort (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠).

Some of my hobbies/intrests are: Myers Briggs typing (I'm an INTJ), astrology, tarot (I've been reading cards for almost ten years), cooking/baking, reading, watching movies, sometimes TV shows, my favorite media genres are sci-fi, fantasy, action/adventure, horror, fashion (although my closet SUCKS rn), writing poetry/songs, singing, ukulele, MUSIC I love music (favorite genres are hyperpop, indie pop, rap, hip-hop, 90s grunge/alternative, and 80s new wave alternative).

That's about it. Message me if you want. (Or don't). I wish you luck in your search! 🧚🏼‍♂️🍀✨