I smoked after 1,072 days of not smoking.

2 cigarettes. Well like 1/4th of one, and then 3/4ths of another. I don't even know why. I always have to do something I feel like, I guess. I quit drinking 20 days ago. Quit smoking weed 34 days ago.

I never thought I'd smoke again. I don't want to constantly feel the need to smoke again. I'll probably throw the pack away tomorrow. Or I won't. I miss the intensity I felt in my early 20s I'm only 25, but have been dulled for a year or two now. I used to feet spiritually intense, emotionally intense, physically intense. All of it. I miss it, and at the same time I never want to feel like that again.

Now my breath stinks, and my fingers do too.