Vivid dream

I've had vivid dreams of you, younger versions but never speaking/ ever showing emotions. Usually in all my previous dreams I'd forget you were dead so we would just do random things, until I woke up and realised that is isn't true anymore. In the ones I did remember you were dead, I would cry and ask you to spend time with us, and you would, although without speaking or showing emotions ( maybe an emotion of shock ).

Today is the first day I had a vivid dreams where you died in a similar way and I had the chance to see you as a dead patience. The only chance where you get to see your loved ones and talk to them before their soul goes away.

It's the first time I saw you speak and cry. I said what did you do, so you know we'll never get to see you again and broke down profusely crying. And you did too. Saying you won't see me? As if not realising what being dead means. Then I hug you and you hug me back both of us crying.

Then I received a WhatsApp text from you saying '😭 they won't let me come down' and I replied asking you so many questions if you're okay, if you want to come down, if you can see us, where exactly were you, how was the place, how were they treating you, hoping you would reply whenever you can.

And then I woke with my big tears breaking through my eye lids and my dream, up not realising that the WhatsApp would only work in dreams and not in real life.

First time I saw you cry in the dream. First time I hear you speak. 1.3 years after you passed. Why? Aren't you happy where you are? I know you miss us as terribly as we miss you. Wish you come to see me more, and talk more. ❤️