Husbands friend

So my husbands friend and I have been fooling around for awhile… Started by my husband.. long story.. you can see it in me previous postings. We started when he was single now hes married…We are all friends.. His wife and I are friends not close but we chat now and( we go out ) alot because they are pretty close . Friends for years…Over time we have been texting also meeting time & time again.. We actually stopped when him & his wife got serious but after maybe a year he texted me and said he missed what we had…( shes a beauty but a prude ) not much fun …He asked me to send him a few sexy pictures.. I use to send him a few here & there to get him off… harmless ? But we were at a cookout at another friends house they have a huge house North of Boston..Well after a lot of drinking and great fun he started in that he still wants to continue our … escapades…I asked about his wife Alison.. and if he ever mentioned anything about what we have done. He explained that he told her that I was very sexy ( his words) and we had a little fun . But he said he didnt tell her everything??? That evening not long after we chatted we somehow ended up alone chatting and we agreed to meet outside to chat more… Well long story short we ended up near his truck started fooling around drunk…And it was intense.. After some light kissing he guided me down to his beautiful big cock that I missed and devoured.. Literally… I sucked his dick for at least 5 minutes crouched down behind his pickup truck… we wanted to fuck but didnt have time…I wanted to so bad..So here I am waiting for his text…Am I bad for wanting his cock so bad? Even tho my husband started it,