Please I need a reading on how this will go for me and my ex

My ex is been no contact for almost two months I have a book it's called a love book it has everything I want everything I need to say I understand this may go badly but to be honest things can't get any worse i want to know how this may go should I send it or hold off I'm JA (male ) my ex is (VP) non binary I have written a letter also to go with it could you find out what I should do thank you and how it will go if I send it thank you