Help: Sexually attracted to men but not romantically.

Can u help me out? Pls dont judge me. I'm sexually attracted and never romantically attracted to men. I cannot imagine myself having relationship with men ever. It just feels so wrong for me. I am sexually and romantically attracted to women and it just feels right. I've only had sex with men because I'm really curious. I was thinking if it has something to do with being SA at 5 and teens by men of relatives. Even on straight and gayporn what arouses me are the moaning, grunting and penetration parts. As well as women, I also like the body of men i dont know if it's just a normal man-crush or what. Help me define myself.